I continue in the search of wisdom from the Lord’s word – I’m in a journey of learning to be a better person, a better wife and a better mother.
You can read more about why I started this challenge here.
Today my husband said something that really got to me, it made me mad and upset but worse of all, I know that what he said is true. I was preparing dinner, and my little one-year old son grabbed the plate I had prepared for his sister from the table and it went flying across the kitchen floor. I know it was not his fault, I know he did not do it on purpose but I still got mad. Not at my son, but at my husband because I had asked him to watch them while I finished cooking. I blamed him for what happened because I felt that now there wouldn’t be enough food for them to eat. My husband didn’t say anything at the time but he grabbed them to take them away to our room and as they were leaving I just told them to take a seat at the table for dinner.
While we were eating, I’m not sure how it started, but I apologized for my behaviour. I told him I was really sorry. He said that he was expecting it, and expanded on to say that whenever everything is okay, when our family is happy, I always find something to make me mad and kind of ruin everything. Maybe those were not his exact words but that’s how I felt. I think the reason it hurt more is because I recognize my problems but I’m working so hard to fix them, that is why I started this challenge after all. I can’t change from one day to another. And I wanted him to see that. I wanted him to know that I’m trying to be a better wife and a better mother to my children. But this takes time and I’m going to keep reading the Bible and learning it and I’m going to start practicing what I learn.
I’ve heard about Proverbs 31 and the ideal woman but I’ve never really read this passage or studied what it meant, until today. I really like it. I’m not anywhere close to being the woman that is described there and surely, I will fall short of becoming a women like such in my life time. But I can certainly try my best at becoming more and more like her.
The woman described in Proverbs 31 is intimidating because she seems so perfect but I think it as women we should strive to be more like her in our daily life. It is hard work, and it is not going to be easy, but it will be worth it for my family and for me. Now I have a goal, to be like the Proverbs 31 woman and I’m going to make this part of life. Here’s the Proverbs 31 woman: